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If he called, I'd probably go running. Yes, I'm sick in the head
Would you really?
Wouldnt you be afraid he wouldnt stay?
Or do you just mean like.....a weekend? Lol
I just need one weekend. Deep down, I know what time it is with him, he told me himself. I don't think this will ever go away until I do get to see him.
You dont think seeing him would make it worse?
I do not think it ever truly "goes away" if it was genuine. I'm a very passionate person and I dont think I could do a weekend and just be done. I know I couldnt.
Maybe part of it IS knowing what time it is?
I haven't spoke with him since 2015. Thinking about him still makes me tear up.
If someone truly cares about you, they won't let anything get in the way of contacting you. He obviously did not care for me like I did for him. I know this yet here I am, still craving that contact.
My grandma taught that if a man really wants you, he will make mountains move.
It sucks like fuck when you meet someone you WANT them to move the mountains and they dont. Especailly when you've had so many jokers chasing you so you are use to the attention. Attention from people you dont find worthy.
Knocks the ego down a few notches, doesnt it?
I just accept the humbling, I dont take it as a hit to my worth, and I think about some of the decent and good men I've done similar things to and see it as my turn.
I'm really good at romanticizing things. That's a trap when you focus on the one person you cant have.
Him not posting must make it easier yeah? Or do you just miss him?