Because?
Because I can only describe the feeling of being punched through the skull while some person is talking at me, then their voice just keeps going on and my fear cycle recycle renews, thus copping it again.
Prior to this, I would have categorised it as being in hell with Satan himself or a demon, and they'd just hit turbo repeat.
I know death isn't the end... I've re-experienced and then tried to forget one of my most violent deaths.
I don't know shit about theology, but I now this... there is an After.
I feel it in my person, despite...everything.