Merry or Sad Christmas

[Anonymous]

Thanks for posting this Annie ... and not only posting it but describing the feelings that some of us have.



While the expenditure / presents expenditure / presents expenditure / presents part of it would alone rule it out for me, as would the increased traffic en route  to the malls, in parking lots and NOT happy unfriendly people inside the malls supposedly buying happy presents. Increased traffic / hassle alone stops me and keeps me at home a lot at this time of year



Part of that is driven by the pressure / expectation to buy presents for people they know ..... "obligation" so many feel



But one deep personal reason is having lost so many close to me, 2 kids of 3, 1 brother of 2 and many more people. No way I can feel good at this time of year - in fact, it all makes me feel totally lousy - except when I can ignore it (not easy as it is in your face everywhere).

I am sad less for myself, as I can often just turn it off "at times", and more  so for  many others out there in similar and often worse personal situations  ... many of whom cannot turn it off what with it being in their face ALL the time



Another deep personal reason  I feel sad is that I know there are so many others who do not have the opportunities I have. So many cannot afford it.



Another deep personal reason is that I know there are others who have lost a lot, many have lost more than I have and cannot cope. It is such an un bearable  sad time for them



Another deep personal reason  I feel sad is that I know there are so many others with nobody  .. nada .. to share it with. The hoopla is demeaning to them and makes life hell for many



It is the worse time of the year for so many people. I'm lucky in that for the most part I can "cave" to partially" escape the terrible feelings it brings to me



I am not finished, but have to go now. Will continue with my feelings about it later if I can

Hello cc li tarte, I saw this before, but I did not how to respond..



I could not imagine how that kind of loss..



I feel guilty because I enjoy this time of year so much.

[Anonymous]

The "frills" that go with Christmas seem to be meant for the children only. I find it sad if an adult still gets excited over that, then again, who knows. Maybe some adults like to get excited that way.



I ride a shuttle each day and when I hear the Christmas songs that include Jingle Bells or Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer, I find myself annoyed with it. Christmas is not about Rudolph or bells. I find it irritating now actually.

I love Christmas very much, but I share your feelings about those songs.

[cc]

I did not how to respond

I understand and posted it only to be honest and NOT for response ... response that is not easy or maybe even impossible to give.



I thank you for caring. That matters to me



Please don't let me or anyone take from you and your family's celebration.

[Anonymous]

cc, I know it is not intended but I cannot read your heartache without crying.  I still can't fathom how difficult this time of year is for you.  I wish I could give you a big hug.



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This year, I suffered a significant MS relapse which is why I'm in Van.  I get extreme facial pain but this time, my right leg hurt as well and ended up going numb.  It really hard to deal with a body that just doesn't work right.  I'm finding myself extremely depressed.  I've started pushing people away because I don't want anyone close to me right now.



I hope I feel better once I get back home to my husband and midgets.  Sorry to be a drag but I opted for honesty rather than fake optimism.

You are in my prayers Real Woman.

 acc_hugz

[Annie]

Sending you warm hugs RW and if there was a way to give the gift of taking away pain, I would give it to you.

[Anonymous]

Sending you warm hugs RW and if there was a way to give the gift of taking away pain, I would give it to you.

We all feel that way Annie..



I sometimes think I should contain my happiness at this time of the year..



My husband and I love Christmas, but I realize not everyone is as fortunate as we are..



Some of you have bravely shared very personal reasons why this season makes you feel sad..



Everyone in my family is healthy and the only family member who is not with us anymore is my father in law..



We also have more than we need..



I am sad to read about the pain some of you feel at this time of year, but I am glad you highlighted that this season is a mixed one for many people Annie.

[Annie]

I love and hate Christmas every year, I think ever since one of my brothers died on Boxing Day 17 years ago :( I was the last person to see him alive and I regret not saying I Love You to him :(

[Anonymous]

I love and hate Christmas every year, I think ever since one of my brothers died on Boxing Day 17 years ago :( I was the last person to see him alive and I regret not saying I Love You to him :(

 ac_crying

[Renee]

It's funny but we all communicate with each other here pretty much daily and I know for me, I sometimes forget that you are all very real people. It's threads like this that bring the reality of your lives and existence home.  ac_hithere



For all of you who are having a rough time this holiday season I want to wish you all the best and I wish I could help make some of your pain go away for even just a little while. This thread is heart wrenching and those of you who know my personality know that I'm not given to responding to mushy stuff but this thread has put a lump in my throat.



All the best, guys. ac_crying

[Anonymous]

It's funny but we all communicate with each other here pretty much daily and I know for me, I sometimes forget that you are all very real people. It's threads like this that bring the reality of your lives and existence home.  ac_hithere



For all of you who are having a rough time this holiday season I want to wish you all the best and I wish I could help make some of your pain go away for even just a little while. This thread is heart wrenching and those of you who know my personality know that I'm not given to responding to mushy stuff but this thread has put a lump in my throat.



All the best, guys. ac_crying

Well said Renee!!

[Annie]

Ditto Renee, all the best to you and everyone to have a Merry Christmas or whatever you celebrate.

[Anonymous]

Ditto Renee, all the best to you and everyone to have a Merry Christmas or whatever you celebrate.

You as well Annie. acc_bath

[cc]

Best wishes to EVERY ONE of you



from a  horny dear

[Frost]

I find Christmas more than depressing, they are rotten times.

There is bright moments, and good people I notice, but mostly self centered, self absorbed people.

Christmas has depressed me since I was a kid, I never really got what i wanted, and my parents couldn't afford really what we did get.

I'm sorry if I offend, but to hell with the holiday the way it has evolved with commercialism.

I really can't make it special for a kid anymore, they get to much during the year.



I think I need to find some needy family, and just do Christmas for them for my pleasure, and theirs.

[Anonymous]

I find Christmas more than depressing, they are rotten times.

There is bright moments, and good people I notice, but mostly self centered, self absorbed people.

Christmas has depressed me since I was a kid, I never really got what i wanted, and my parents couldn't afford really what we did get.

I'm sorry if I offend, but to hell with the holiday the way it has evolved with commercialism.

I really can't make it special for a kid anymore, they get to much during the year.



I think I need to find some needy family, and just do Christmas for them for my pleasure, and theirs.

I don't mind Xmas, but it doesn't mean as much to me as Native-born Canadians. Lunar New Year in China though is really something though. All about being with family. Fuck, I miss it.