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Quote from: Garraty_47 on June 27, 2024, 08:14:31 AMOh I might take the piss out of you for it...My piss stinks, but if you're gonna take it out then... I would hope that you and it would be very very happy together.
Quote from: Lokmar on June 27, 2024, 10:24:53 AMI'm a bit softer than I'd like to be many times. A childhood friend of mine hanged himself a few years back and another was going down the same road. I wound up putting him up in hotels, buying him food and helping him in other ways over several months. I dont know if he will ever get his shit straight but I'm done investing money in him. My kids gave me a bunch of shit over it. All in all, I spent about $1200 on keeping him alive...not much, really.
Quote from: Dove on June 27, 2024, 10:19:20 AMI only robbed my own family members but trust me....they deserved it.
The only person who was mad at me over my heroin adventures was the man I'm with now...he obviously got over it. But the first convo I had with him after I got out of rehab had me ugly crying myself to sleep.
I thought I burned this bridge. Not even close...but at the time I really thought he would never speak to me again.
Biggie wasn't thrilled either. He knew because I told him though. Before I even went to rehab.
I'm glad I didn't try scamming anyone I care about or love.
I felt like I got myself into that mess and I'd had to pull my way out somehow. Some of thr stories I heard people tell in recovery ....oh man. Even at my worst i couldn't do some of the shit I heard other people openly admit to. As if they were proud of having that shame.
Sharing their "bragamonies".
Quote from: Garraty_47 on June 27, 2024, 08:14:31 AMOh I might take the piss out of you for it but judge? Never!
From the official website of The Elevated Church of the Good Bean:
Whether you acquire your coffee as whole beans, pre-ground, or already brewed the important thing is having Nectar of the Good Bean.
Likewise whether you prefer your coffee unadulterated, with a splash of creamer, flavored, or as a minor ingredient in a mixed beverage the important thing is having Nectar of the Good Bean.
It matters not if you percolate, pod, press, or purchase your Nectar of the Good Bean as a finished product. It is all sacred and should be praised.
Members of TECotGB must not become elitist about the particulars of coffee acquisition and preparation. Diverse individual preferences is a good thing; it contributes to a vast range of experiences with Nectar of the Good Bean.
The one exception to this inclusivity is of course decaf.
Never decaf. Never ever never never.
Ever.
Quote from: Lokmar on June 26, 2024, 11:51:18 PMHave all the drugs you want. I dont want ANY tax payer dollars bailing anyone out with treatment of any kind and when dirty dopers wind up trying to rob me and I shoot them dead, I should get to sell their body to science. Also, killing street bums should be legal.
Quote from: smartass on June 27, 2024, 07:59:15 AMWell yeah, the alternative is coffee. Vit and Frood would get up me about my penchant for instant coffee, but I don't mind the taste and it's quick and easy. There's very little in the way of properly brewed coffee that I prefer to it.
Quote from: caskur on June 27, 2024, 12:48:19 AMNicotine would kill corona virus... it's a rather fragile virus.Well yeah, the alternative is coffee. Vit and Frood would get up me about my penchant for instant coffee, but I don't mind the taste and it's quick and easy. There's very little in the way of properly brewed coffee that I prefer to it.
The green tea might not be a healthy option...
Green Tea is prone to mould and mould is really bad for your organs...
I know tea is lovely but find an alternative...
Quote from: caskur on June 27, 2024, 12:48:19 AMYou know weird as this sounds I will have hot water with a dash of milk.... and it's quite nice but everyone gives me a funny look.Fuck it, you're not hurting anyone with that and if it makes you feel good... who cares what anyone else thinks?
Quote from: smartass on June 25, 2024, 03:17:13 PMI had a few monkeys on my back. It took a while to get them under control. Luckily (from my perspective) my body was becoming largely unresponsive to the effects and withdrawals and much of my habits were... well, habit. I would still get a buzz on occasion, usually when I'd sourced more potent medical grade stuff.
I don't miss it, though I also wouldn't trade my experience with it for the world. I came out the other side of it alright and the manner by which I came out of it gave me strength and somewhat of a source of pride in myself. "Yes, I put myself in that pit. But I also managed to get myself out of it". Not many do both.
Cannabinoids might be one thing I might look into in the future, but its doubtful. The last time I had any of that was over 4 years ago and while I've been around it since I simply haven't felt like it. I could probably score some gummies or a bud or two right now in fact - I wouldn't have to go far for it, but I just don't feel like doing it. I wasn't looking to give that aspect of my drug usage away, it's just the way things shook out.
I do still vape, don't bother with the smokes except very occasionally (about two packs of smokes in the last four years) and my caffeine intake goes up and down on the regular. Mostly coffee and green tea. Those are my drugs these days and I'm feeling pretty good about that. I may give the vaping up... I dunno though. Yes, nicotine is a poison but in the near absence of burning vegetable matter my lung function has improved immeasurably and I suspect there might have been something to those French tests that indicated coronaviruses didn't fare too well with the nic floating past them.
It could all be bullshit for what I know; the one thing I do know is whatever I'm doing now is working for me. So why fuck with it?
Quote from: smartass on June 26, 2024, 10:28:11 PMMeanwhile...
https://youtu.be/j7znVUW7kRI?si=9naI8Dbpwz5fL75B
...edibles be rayciss...
Quote from: Styxhexenhammer666 on June 20, 2024, 03:10:30 AMhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EaR8XdSuhZk
Quote from: Dove on June 25, 2024, 11:22:31 AMWhen I was kicking heroin I HAD to use the "just today I won't use" mindsetI had a few monkeys on my back. It took a while to get them under control. Luckily (from my perspective) my body was becoming largely unresponsive to the effects and withdrawals and much of my habits were... well, habit. I would still get a buzz on occasion, usually when I'd sourced more potent medical grade stuff.
Because the thought of NEVER feeling that high again was devastating. It honestly made me feel like life wasn't even worth it anymore.
I KNOW how pathetic that sounds.
But I am 10 years clean and NOW I don't even want it anymore.
When I'm in my last days my daughters will make sure I'm flying on morphine so...I can look forward to that lol
Quote from: knows things on June 25, 2024, 10:10:02 AMFrom personal experience, it is psychologically better to set shorter term goals. "Not now" and "not today" are easier targets than "never again" in that you are rewarded on the regular for your success and are more likely to try again should you ever "fall off the wagon". They effectively rewire your thought processes towards feeling good about your continued and accrued achievements for as long as you persist in your course. Eventually, the chattering monkey of addiction on your back is no longer a concern. You no longer need to rely on willpower, you can be in the thick of people indulging in what you used to indulge in and feel no desire whatsoever to participate in it yourself.
It does take time, as all good things do. But you do win the battle over yourself in the end if you keep reminding yourself that all the times your "not today" has triumphed over failure. I know because I've done it. Had I said "never" instead, all I'd have would have been a string of failures for every time I fell off the wagon and the expectation that I might again at any time in the future. Instead I told myself "not today". I still fell off the wagon a few times, but nowhere near as many times as I prevailed over it. Within a year I was thumbing my nose at that monkey. These days I barely give it a second thought.
I imagine you are proud you've made it this far on your "never again" as you should justly be. And perhaps you might be comfortable in waging a war of Will against the craving for the rest of your days, I wouldn't question you if that were your mind.
But if you ever feel like kicking that monkey completely to the curb and leaving it utterly defeated in your wake, remember what I've said here today.
Quote...that reminded me I once craved nicotine and still do but will never have it again....
Quote from: Dove on June 24, 2024, 05:26:20 PMYep. Sometimes my daughter (the 18 year old) grabs my vape. I smack her in the head and yell about how she doesn't need a nic addiction.
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