Look at the crowd... Look at the vibe... My sadness is maximum sad.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgpcwYooLO0
I'm scared to click on it. Where are you, Mel?
You know, I loved the 80's. I had some really great memories growing up back them. If only my stepdad would have been murdered when I was 14. That would have made them much, much, better.
Overall, my life after 2001 got great. Now, its fucking awesome.
If I had to go back to the 80's to relive my life, I'd either disown my mom and step dad or I would shoot him in the lower pelvis with his 300 Win Mag and then beat him to death with it.
Quote from: Lokmar post_id=489763 time=1672559341 user_id=3351
You know, I loved the 80's. I had some really great memories growing up back them. If only my stepdad would have been murdered when I was 14. That would have made them much, much, better.
Overall, my life after 2001 got great. Now, its fucking awesome.
If I had to go back to the 80's to relive my life, I'd either disown my mom and step dad or I would shoot him in the lower pelvis with his 300 Win Mag and then beat him to death with it.
Forgiveness or letting go of past wrongs is healthy for a soul.
On ourselves or administered to ourselves by others.
I grew up Christian in private Catholic schools where we had an extra weekday mass and a couple of late weekdays to practice for the weekday mass. It was almost all choreography and about looking perfect, singing perfect, pretending to be perfect... and I despised it.
Then years later after abandoning it all, I watched "Heaven and Hell" with Tommy Lee Jones (about a Vietnam War soldier) who meets his wife there and brings her back to the States... then I watched "What Dreams May Come" with Robin Williams and Marissa Tomei... and my interest in the this life and the afterlife was piqued.
I won't and don't pretend to have a single fucking answer about the meaning of life or the realities of non-life, but those stories heartened my grim and dreary outlook and maybe, just maybe, if you have love in your heart despite all the others parts working against it, everything is good and proper and just how it should be.
Maybe Buddhists are full of shit.... but then again, why do all denominations love the movie "Groundhogs Day"?
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You know, I loved the 80's. I had some really great memories growing up back them. If only my stepdad would have been murdered when I was 14. That would have made them much, much, better.
Overall, my life after 2001 got great. Now, its fucking awesome.
If I had to go back to the 80's to relive my life, I'd either disown my mom and step dad or I would shoot him in the lower pelvis with his 300 Win Mag and then beat him to death with it.
Same. My shitty step dad dropped dead last year. I didnt even care lol.
I have a step brother out of it that I'm glad for though but him and I bonded over slamming the step dad :yahoo:
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If I had to go back to the 80's to relive my life, I'd either disown my mom and step dad or
I felt that way twords my kids loser dad. I wanted to unalive him. The force was so great.. ive never felt so homicidal in my life!
But then I decided to go to court one last time and give the judge shit for ignoring me for 7 years....I studied family law for one year and used it in my favor and I won! I got full custody and a no contact order. So I dropped the homicidal tendencies and finally healed.
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If I had to go back to the 80's to relive my life, I'd either disown my mom and step dad or
I felt that way twords my kids loser dad. I wanted to unalive him. The force was so great.. ive never felt so homicidal in my life!
But then I decided to go to court one last time and give the judge shit for ignoring me for 7 years....I studied family law for one year and used it in my favor and I won! I got full custody and a no contact order. So I dropped the homicidal tendencies and finally healed.
Good going Ber. However, rumour has it that the law gave you gas.
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It can be yes. But some people just don't deserve to be forgiven.
My ex was texting me a bunch of garbage several years ago....had nothing to do with co-parenring... just constant harassment and abuse...I even text him and told him he was peice of shit and I will never forgive him for all the shit he has done, if he wants forgiveness, to ask his God.
This prick...he was one of those people that always talked about how his God was the best God and eveyone else's sucked....yeah whatever loser... he doesn't even practice his shit or even involved with his community.
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I felt that way twords my kids loser dad. I wanted to unalive him. The force was so great.. ive never felt so homicidal in my life!
But then I decided to go to court one last time and give the judge shit for ignoring me for 7 years....I studied family law for one year and used it in my favor and I won! I got full custody and a no contact order. So I dropped the homicidal tendencies and finally healed.
Good going Ber. However, rumour has it that the law gave you gas.
:roll:
Rumor has it, everything gives me gas lol
Lot of obsessed weirdos on this forum who literally want me to fart in their face...fart juice and all!!
They know they love it!
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Good going Ber. However, rumour has it that the law gave you gas.
:roll:
Rumor has it, everything gives me gas lol
Lot of obsessed weirdos on this forum who literally want me to fart in their face...fart juice and all!!
They know they love it!
Lots of weird fucks on these forums.
Forgiveness is the easy path...
When you dont have the balls to take revenge, you fold and forgive.
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Forgiveness is the easy path...
When you dont have the balls to take revenge, you fold and forgive.
Huh? Ah nevermind.
Quote from: Odinson post_id=489907 time=1672716050 user_id=136
Forgiveness is the easy path...
When you dont have the balls to take revenge, you fold and forgive.
Revenge is a dark and hollow path. Shit must be dealt with immediately, or let go.
"Magua's heart is twisted. He would make himself into what twisted him."
I dont need to forgive my stepdad. Hating him is the right thing to do.
I also hold a grudge against my mom. She traded an asshole (my real dad) who abused her for one (my stepdad) who abused me.
I suppose I should travel to Dixon, Mo. (ish) and shit on his grave sometime. He left kids though so I wont for their sake.
Jesus forgives those WHO ASK FOR IT!!!!!!!!
Oh damn. I'm sorry you had to endure that, Lokmar. Women like that really piss me off
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Oh damn. I'm sorry you had to endure that, Lokmar. Women like that really piss me off
Thanks Erica, I do appreciate it.
Overall though, it made me who I am and I dont want to be different.
So far I'd say the best days of my life were in the early and mid 2000's... tons of mates, tons of birds, tons of memorable nights out, none of the typical worries which we're all plagued with in adult life.
We can't be kids forever though, unfortunately.
Lokmar might have deserved to get his ass beaten.
American kids are disrespectful towards their parents.
There are two sides to these domestic abuse stories.
A lot of the American kids should be sent to live in the woods for a while to learn some manners.
Same with the American wives.
Every person that I loved or didn't like even that has passed away I think of them all the time plus my pets so I am quite sensitive about the death subject.
The older I get the more sensitive I am about losing anyone.
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Lokmar might have deserved to get his ass beaten.
American kids are disrespectful towards their parents.
There are two sides to these domestic abuse stories.
A lot of the American kids should be sent to live in the woods for a while to learn some manners.
Same with the American wives.
Americans are disgusting in some ways but at least they talk and you can have good discussions with them...
They are quite social one on one to talk to.
Quote from: Odinson post_id=490118 time=1672855440 user_id=136
Lokmar might have deserved to get his ass beaten.
American kids are disrespectful towards their parents.
There are two sides to these domestic abuse stories.
A lot of the American kids should be sent to live in the woods for a while to learn some manners.
Same with the American wives.
Sure, I did at times. However, it was the several occasions where I was choked out, drunken episodes where he decided I was gonna be the opponent, body slamming me face first on my bed which gave me a bloody nose, along with a host of other over the top bullshit which moved it into the space of abuse. Mostly though, it was the repeated choking my unconscious.
About the only good thing I can say about the cunt is he put a roof over my head and food in my belly.
What finally got my idiot mom to leave him wasnt the multiple DUI's, wrecking cars, fist fights in public with his own employees, getting black out drunk, or abusing me. No, what finally sealed the deal was he was on a bender one night and he got out his guns, brought them into the bedroom, laid them on the bed, loaded them, and them stood there until I guess he decided to take them all back into the gun cabinet. She left the next day.
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Lokmar might have deserved to get his ass beaten.
American kids are disrespectful towards their parents.
There are two sides to these domestic abuse stories.
A lot of the American kids should be sent to live in the woods for a while to learn some manners.
Same with the American wives.
Sure, I did at times. However, it was the several occasions where I was choked out, drunken episodes where he decided I was gonna be the opponent, body slamming me face first on my bed which gave me a bloody nose, along with a host of other over the top bullshit which moved it into the space of abuse. Mostly though, it was the repeated choking my unconscious.
About the only good thing I can say about the cunt is he put a roof over my head and food in my belly.
What finally got my idiot mom to leave him wasnt the multiple DUI's, wrecking cars, fist fights in public with his own employees, getting black out drunk, or abusing me. No, what finally sealed the deal was he was on a bender one night and he got out his guns, brought them into the bedroom, laid them on the bed, loaded them, and them stood there until I guess he decided to take them all back into the gun cabinet. She left the next day.
I know the type. I had to beat the shit out of my older sister's ex husband and I had to scare the shit out of my kid sister's old man.
You white people got a load of shit, yo....
(Just joking)
But it's severe shit. Don't ever let minorities tell you that you were raised on easy street.
I can't speak of mine.... or I won't speak of it. More to the point.
But it's been a lifelong head fuck.
We do what we and the best of us can..
I'm just glad my kids never had to deal with what I had to endure.
There is sickness in all mankind. Just remove yourself from it.
Finland born african and middle-eastern kids are 50 times more likely to suffer of autism than Finnish kids.
Its the lack of vitamin D.
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Finland born african and middle-eastern kids are 50 times more likely to suffer of autism than Finnish kids.
I find that figure hard to believe.
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I dont need to forgive my stepdad. Hating him is the right thing to do.
I also hold a grudge against my mom. She traded an asshole (my real dad) who abused her for one (my stepdad) who abused me.
I suppose I should travel to Dixon, Mo. (ish) and shit on his grave sometime. He left kids though so I wont for their sake.
Jesus forgives those WHO ASK FOR IT!!!!!!!!
you aren't talking sexual abuse are you?
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Finland born african and middle-eastern kids are 50 times more likely to suffer of autism than Finnish kids.
I find that figure hard to believe.
It's so they can get more welfare having kids with a handicap.
Quote from: Odinson post_id=490233 time=1672986033 user_id=136
Finland born african and middle-eastern kids are 50 times more likely to suffer of autism than Finnish kids.
Its the lack of vitamin D.
These poorly educated people breed and everyone ends up paying for them.... and i think you mean Vitamin D 3...
You know it Mel, you're a White single male and don't have kids.
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You know it Mel, you're a White single male and
Thank Gawd for that.
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You know it Mel, you're a White single male and
Thank Gawd for that.
Having a crazy dad would be terrifying, but then I have multiple mental disorders, which crosses me out of the parent lists too, lol.
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Thank Gawd for that.
Having a crazy dad would be terrifying, but then I have multiple mental disorders, which crosses me out of the parent lists too, lol.
Still, you would be a far better candidate for fatherhood than Mel.
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I dont need to forgive my stepdad. Hating him is the right thing to do.
I also hold a grudge against my mom. She traded an asshole (my real dad) who abused her for one (my stepdad) who abused me.
I suppose I should travel to Dixon, Mo. (ish) and shit on his grave sometime. He left kids though so I wont for their sake.
Jesus forgives those WHO ASK FOR IT!!!!!!!!
you aren't talking sexual abuse are you?
No. Constant verbal derision and strangulation. I guess thats sexual for some though, LOL!
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Thank Gawd for that.
Having a crazy dad would be terrifying, but then I have multiple mental disorders, which crosses me out of the parent lists too, lol.
Don't sell yourself short.
Parenthood forces those with issues out of their shells in order to do right by their kids.
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Having a crazy dad would be terrifying, but then I have multiple mental disorders, which crosses me out of the parent lists too, lol.
Don't sell yourself short.
Parenthood forces those with issues out of their shells in order to do right by their kids.
Thanks DD ac_smile , tbh that's something I've never ever realize, and deeply appreciate the kind words and support.
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Having a crazy dad would be terrifying, but then I have multiple mental disorders, which crosses me out of the parent lists too, lol.
Don't sell yourself short.
Parenthood forces those with issues out of their shells in order to do right by their kids.
This right here! Amen
Quote from: Melson post_id=489640 time=1672485688
Look at the crowd... Look at the vibe... My sadness is maximum sad.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgpcwYooLO0
There's nothing more unappealing than a very white person. Looking sickly pale or even translucent is morbid. Thank fuck for interracial relationships...
Some people make it work.
https://youtu.be/RSLP1FCREBA?t=51
Where is Mel? Is he posting at Bastard Factory? I cannot imagine him retiring from forums.
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Where is Mel? Is he posting at Bastard Factory? I cannot imagine him retiring from forums.
Was just gonna ask the same question, busy with work and renovating his home most probably.
I haven't seen him around since before Christmas.
He'll be back. Mel can't stay away
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Where is Mel? Is he posting at Bastard Factory? I cannot imagine him retiring from forums.
Was just gonna ask the same question, busy with work and renovating his home most probably.
I haven't seen him around since before Christmas.
Jabbed?
Jabbed!
Quote from: "Erica Mena" post_id=491196 time=1673720994 user_id=2845
He'll be back. Mel can't stay away
Mel hates female admins. For that reason, he'll be back for sho.
Where is Mel?
Is he posting somewhere?
Nah Mel isn't jabbed, he's clued up on the jew juice and is an anti-vaxxer.
Would you rather be a slave in Florida or...
A share-cropper for the Russian empire in 19th century Finland?
Quote from: Odinson post_id=491776 time=1674097980 user_id=136
Would you rather be a slave in Florida or...
A share-cropper for the Russian empire in 19th century Finland?
A Florida negro. They got better weather.
Picking cotton is pretty light duty compared to logging in deep snow.
Quote from: Odinson post_id=491790 time=1674105062 user_id=136
Picking cotton is pretty light duty compared to logging in deep snow.
Oh ya.