Some poster questioned it, and yes, I am banned for one week. The last ban (three days ago) was for one day.  If I post again, evs and/or mimi will most likely ban me within the same day for a month, or quite possibly permanently.
They don't want me there, but are happy to state the fact that they "don't ban anyone?"  Yeah right.  Evs is the biggest lying, conniving, piece of shit you'll ever come across.  Mimi isn't far behind.  This is what they don't like to hear, hence my removal, which will eventually end up permanent.  They like to attack me though, as it is fun for them.  However, they remove me and my posts when I come back swinging...  Double standard.
Anyhow, I know this forum couldn't care less, so I'll keep it short and sweet as to not 'cross-contaminate.'
Just know that I can no longer post there, and obviously this forum here isn't a 'home' either for some White boy, so obviously my posts here will be minimal for the most part.
To those that were great over the last few years, wish you the best...  To those that weren't?  Rot in hell...
That is all.
			
			
			
				Right from the start she was a fake bitch.  I've actually met her...  Just completely a fake bitch.
She puts on a good act.  Completely disgusting though...
She did nothing but ramble incoherent shit half the night when I met her, and the rest she was glued to her fucking laptop.  And this was in a fucking pub!~
			
			
			
				Just out to lunch.  Completely out to lunch.
She was dressed well though!
Had the demeanor of a fucking meth addict though, no fucking joke...
			
			
			
				I think I'm nuts, but she's truly crazy.  When it was time to go, I reached out to give her a hug in passing, and she was just "cold."  She was more worried about Orik and DV.
Nutty, nutty bitch.
			
			
			
				And no, she couldn't shut her fucking mouth.  Good luck trying to get a word in.
			
			
			
				i don;t know what to tell you Ace.....you fucked up one too many times...i agree your days at VF are numbered and you pissed every body here off when you killed your cat...so i suspect this will not work out too well for you...to bad
			
			
			
				Such is life...
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
I think I'm nuts, but she's truly crazy.  When it was time to go, I reached out to give her a hug in passing, and she was just "cold."  She was more worried about Orik and DV.
Nutty, nutty bitch.
didn't Orik spill a drink on himself and lose his cool.......threatened eves...maybe that was at the coffee shop
			 
			
			
				No.  She couldn't put the laptop away for five fucking minutes...  At least her friend could.
			
			
			
				In between her "laptop sessions," she rambled on like a fucking lunatic.
			
			
			
				She doesn't drink, so that's not even a factor.  She's nuts!~
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
No.  She couldn't put the laptop away for five fucking minutes...  At least her friend could.
Rita ?????
			 
			
			
				Blonde that smokes?
			
			
			
				Yeah, it was Rita.  Couldn't crack a fucking smile if her life depended on it.
I must've bought her a dozen drinks, but Christ her cunt attitude never changed.  No fun...
			
			
			
				I just wanted some fun times, and these two cunts were the furthest that you would ever want with you on a night out...
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
Yeah, it was Rita.  Couldn't crack a fucking smile if her life depended on it.
I must've bought her a dozen drinks, but Christ her cunt attitude never changed.  No fun...
blonde, big tits.....she was a stripper.....they were friends but eves turned on her later on.....not sure why exactly
			 
			
			
				That was her.  A real cunt.
I offered to walk them to their vehicle, for safety purposes...
How dare I...
			
			
			
				They had some other dude there that couldn't crack a fucking smile, and stared off into outer space for all of the night...
They loved him!  He was awesome!
			
			
			
				Evs is a piece of shit.  Plain and simple...
			
			
			
				Her little fag mods suck her cunt...  Right, Zekko?
			
			
			
				Hahaha.  That's how I imagine hanging out with her to be.
I'm fun!
			
			
			
				Yeah, that's great you retarded idiot...
			
			
			
				I can count to potato!
			
			
			
				Orik? Rita? Blonde who smokes? Who the fuck are you talking about Gay Pride....I mean Asian Pride?
			
			
			
				Orik? Rita? Blonde who smokes? Who the fuck are you talking about Gay Pride....I mean Asian Pride?
			
			
			
				It seems Mel is trying or has tried to hook up with almost all the women on VF for drinks at one time or another. Then he gets pissed at them a calls them "cunts" when they rebuff his ignorant, vile, cat killing, ass. 
What a pathetic little scumbag. ac_toofunny
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
It seems Mel is trying or has tried to hook up with almost all the women on VF for drinks at one time or another. Then he gets pissed at them a calls them "cunts" when they rebuff his ignorant, vile, cat killing, ass. 
What a pathetic little scumbag. ac_toofunny
I believe that, but who is Rita, Orik and the blonde chaninsmoker?
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Shen Li"
Quote from: "Renee"
It seems Mel is trying or has tried to hook up with almost all the women on VF for drinks at one time or another. Then he gets pissed at them a calls them "cunts" when they rebuff his ignorant, vile, cat killing, ass. 
What a pathetic little scumbag. ac_toofunny
I believe that, but who is Rita, Orik and the blonde chaninsmoker?
The name Orik is familiar; if memory serves he or she was a former forum member or mod or some shit. I couldn't tell you about the others; I have no idea but then again do I even give a fuck; probably not.......most definitely not.
What I find disturbing is Mel's need to hook up with the forum women. I guess in his twisted little alcohol fogged mind VF is some kind of half-assed dating site.  ac_toofunny
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Shen Li"
Quote from: "Renee"
It seems Mel is trying or has tried to hook up with almost all the women on VF for drinks at one time or another. Then he gets pissed at them a calls them "cunts" when they rebuff his ignorant, vile, cat killing, ass. 
What a pathetic little scumbag. ac_toofunny
I believe that, but who is Rita, Orik and the blonde chaninsmoker?
The name Orik is familiar; if memory serves he or she was a former forum member or mod or some shit. I couldn't tell you about the others; I have no idea but then again do I even give a fuck; probably not.......most definitely not.
What I find disturbing is Mel's need to hook up with the forum women. I guess in his twisted little alcohol fogged mind VF is some kind of half-assed dating site.  ac_toofunny
I didn't know Gay Pride was looking for love on VF.
			 
			
			
				Orik is a guy from DV who was on MB.  
Rita was the blond stripper friend of evs who smokes.  LTR bitches!
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Shen Li"
Quote from: "Renee"
It seems Mel is trying or has tried to hook up with almost all the women on VF for drinks at one time or another. Then he gets pissed at them a calls them "cunts" when they rebuff his ignorant, vile, cat killing, ass. 
What a pathetic little scumbag. ac_toofunny
I believe that, but who is Rita, Orik and the blonde chaninsmoker?
The name Orik is familiar; if memory serves he or she was a former forum member or mod or some shit. I couldn't tell you about the others; I have no idea but then again do I even give a fuck; probably not.......most definitely not.
What I find disturbing is Mel's need to hook up with the forum women. I guess in his twisted little alcohol fogged mind VF is some kind of half-assed dating site.  ac_toofunny
He just wants to hang out.  He's invited me.  I said no.  hahaa
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Shen Li"
I believe that, but who is Rita, Orik and the blonde chaninsmoker?
The name Orik is familiar; if memory serves he or she was a former forum member or mod or some shit. I couldn't tell you about the others; I have no idea but then again do I even give a fuck; probably not.......most definitely not.
What I find disturbing is Mel's need to hook up with the forum women. I guess in his twisted little alcohol fogged mind VF is some kind of half-assed dating site.  ac_toofunny
He just wants to hang out.  He's invited me.  I said no.  hahaa
Yeah so, he invited me too. You don't see a pattern here? 
Oh I forgot, you are into internet romance. So when are you moving in with him? I really hope you don't bring any pets with you; at least none that you are kinda attached to.  ac_toofunny
			 
			
			
				The guy is a B lister at best.  I think Inky should go for it. hahaha
One romance and now I am some e-whore.  SHEESH!
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
The guy is a B lister at best.  I think Inky should go for it. hahaha
One romance and now I am some e-whore.  SHEESH!
Hey, what do you expect? It got kind of freaking torrid there for a while, not to mention rather public.  ac_hithere 
Now you're looked at like "Miss Congeniality" of the forums by every horn-dog on VF.  ac_toofunny
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
The guy is a B lister at best.  I think Inky should go for it. hahaha
One romance and now I am some e-whore.  SHEESH!
Hey, what do you expect? It got kind of freaking torrid there for a while, not to mention rather public.  ac_hithere 
Now you're looked at like "Miss Congeniality" of the forums by ever horn-dog on VF.  ac_toofunny
Miss  something or other to be sure....lets see....missguided, misstaken, missinformed, misslead, misstress, mississippi, misscastlegar......... ac_dunno
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
Quote from: "Renee"
The name Orik is familiar; if memory serves he or she was a former forum member or mod or some shit. I couldn't tell you about the others; I have no idea but then again do I even give a fuck; probably not.......most definitely not.
What I find disturbing is Mel's need to hook up with the forum women. I guess in his twisted little alcohol fogged mind VF is some kind of half-assed dating site.  ac_toofunny
He just wants to hang out.  He's invited me.  I said no.  hahaa
Yeah so, he invited me too. You don't see a pattern here? 
Oh I forgot, you are into internet romance. So when are you moving in with him? I really hope you don't bring any pets with you; at least none that you are kinda attached to.  ac_toofunny
He never invited me, so I guess he isn't into coloured chicks. I am so jealous. ac_toofunny
			 
			
			
				He invited me a couple times to his place, even offered to pay for a taxi there and back.  Of course I said no thank you, hubby would not like that if I went to some guys home who I only knew on a forum. I have however met several posters from the dv forum and that was in a public place and they weren't as nuts as Mel lol
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Annie"
He invited me a couple times to his place, even offered to pay for a taxi there and back.  Of course I said no thank you, hubby would not like that if I went to some guys home who I only knew on a forum. I have however met several posts from the dv forum and that was in a public place and they weren't as nuts as Mel lol
Was he drunk when he invited you over?
			 
			
			
				Ya, he probably was lolol
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
The guy is a B lister at best.  I think Inky should go for it. hahaha
One romance and now I am some e-whore.  SHEESH!
Hey, what do you expect? It got kind of freaking torrid there for a while, not to mention rather public.  ac_hithere 
Now you're looked at like "Miss Congeniality" of the forums by ever horn-dog on VF.  ac_toofunny
Quite the opposite actually.  I got more hate mail over that revelation than I care to admit.
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Shen Li"
Was he drunk when he invited you over?
I'm a slut when I drink.  Who isn't?
However, I can control my sexual urges very well, and honestly have no problems drinking a few drinks (or what have you) with strangers.
Problem is, sometimes I forget that the women that post here are all married with kids, so obviously I waste my time.  Nonetheless, it is what it is...
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
Quote from: "Shen Li"
Was he drunk when he invited you over?
I'm a slut when I drink.  Who isn't?
However, I can control my sexual urges very well, and honestly have no problems drinking a few drinks (or what have you) with strangers.
Problem is, sometimes I forget that the women that post here are all married with kids, so obviously I waste my time.  Nonetheless, it is what it is...
You will find a lovely woman, get married again and hopefully have a healthy lovely baby.
 ac_smile
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
The guy is a B lister at best.  I think Inky should go for it. hahaha
One romance and now I am some e-whore.  SHEESH!
Hey, what do you expect? It got kind of freaking torrid there for a while, not to mention rather public.  ac_hithere 
Now you're looked at like "Miss Congeniality" of the forums by ever horn-dog on VF.  ac_toofunny
Quite the opposite actually.  I got more hate mail over that revelation than I care to admit.
I try like hell but I never get hate mail. 
I feel left out.  ac_crying
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Shen Li"
Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
He just wants to hang out.  He's invited me.  I said no.  hahaa
Yeah so, he invited me too. You don't see a pattern here? 
Oh I forgot, you are into internet romance. So when are you moving in with him? I really hope you don't bring any pets with you; at least none that you are kinda attached to.  ac_toofunny
He never invited me, so I guess he isn't into coloured chicks. I am so jealous. ac_toofunny
 
He is probably afraid of you. No joke.  ac_smile
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Shen Li"
Quote from: "Renee"
Yeah so, he invited me too. You don't see a pattern here? 
Oh I forgot, you are into internet romance. So when are you moving in with him? I really hope you don't bring any pets with you; at least none that you are kinda attached to.  ac_toofunny
He never invited me, so I guess he isn't into coloured chicks. I am so jealous. ac_toofunny
 
He is probably afraid of you. No joke.  ac_smile
I'd invite Shen over, but I'm afraid of my wife.  
Being flayed alive is no joke!
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
Quote from: "Renee"
Hey, what do you expect? It got kind of freaking torrid there for a while, not to mention rather public.  ac_hithere 
Now you're looked at like "Miss Congeniality" of the forums by ever horn-dog on VF.  ac_toofunny
Quite the opposite actually.  I got more hate mail over that revelation than I care to admit.
I try like hell but I never get hate mail. 
I feel left out.  ac_crying
You can answer mine for me :)
			 
			
			
				I think I'm overdue to send you some hate mail.  I could forward it to Renee instead.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
Quite the opposite actually.  I got more hate mail over that revelation than I care to admit.
I try like hell but I never get hate mail. 
I feel left out.  ac_crying
You can answer mine for me :)
No thanks,
It's only worth answering if it is your own.
			 
			
			
				Renee, I'm pretty sure I sent you hate mail and you ignored it entirely.  I know that's what you are supposed to do and all, but it's a bit hypocritical to complain about not getting more of it now!
			
			
			
				Quote from: "reel"
I think I'm overdue to send you some hate mail.  I could forward it to Renee instead.
You all get hate mail because of your shitty attitudes. If you were sweeter than fucking sugar like I am, you wouldn't have haters. ac_razz
			 
			
			
				I hate you!!!!  ac_toofunny 
Just kidding, Shen. Just playing, heheh.
 ac_hithere
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Fashionista"
You will find a lovely woman, get married again and hopefully have a healthy lovely baby.
 ac_smile
Fash, I think there is no rush on Mel's part. I'm not a therapist so I shouldn't make assessments. However, from my observation, I can say that I think he needs to sort out his issues first before he seeks the companion of a female. From what he posts, any self-respecting female will be turned off by it. It is depressing and drags you down. It does not draw a female in, does not compel them to be interested. Perhaps someone like Mel needs to see a therapist to find out why he can't sustain a course of action towards becoming at peace with self and others and be rid of his bitterness and hatred of women.
			 
			
			
				Mel, I know about depression and feeling isolated etc. I've been there a few times and it's especially harder in the dark rainy months. It's not all in your head and you're def not alone with this. You can't just simply turn these feeling off and on but you can take it one day at a time and make little changes that over time will snowball into huge changes that will make your life more manageable.  Talking about it can help and that's what you've been doing, I hope it does help but dwelling on the same things over and over is not moving on. Take one thing and not dwell on it for one whole day and go from there, baby steps. I wish you all the best and hope you can pull yourself up a bit and get on with the good stuff in life.
			
			
			
				True, Annie. If the forums have been a sounding board, God knows we've heard enough. It is now time to move forward and that is not something the forum can offer. A professional can. Supposedly he's not wanting so if one can afford a pro, go for it and get well.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Azhya Aryola"
True, Annie. If the forums have been a sounding board, God knows we've heard enough. It is now time to move forward and that is not something the forum can offer. A professional can. Supposedly he's not wanting so if one can afford a pro, go for it and get well.
Ah, he's just an attention whore. He won't kill himself because that would mean he can't post his BS on the forums.
			 
			
			
				I agree Shen, he just wants and needs attention he is not getting in real life. One has to do what they can for attention to thrive and survive. It's easier for people who have family near like many of us who are married with kids while it can be harder for others because they are alone.  I still don't think he actually shot his cat, she was and is his only closest friend right now I think, so why do that? Except for shock value and attention.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Annie"
I agree Shen, he just wants and needs attention he is not getting in real life. One has to do what they can for attention to thrive and survive. It's easier for people who have family near like many of us who are married with kids while it can be harder for others because they are alone.  I still don't think he actually shot his cat, she was and is his only closest friend right now I think, so why do that? Except for shock value and attention.
Of course he didn't shoot his cat. He wasn't satisfied with the reaction his tiresome "I'm going to kill myself" threads were getting, so he decided to up the ante and claim he killed his cat. What's next? He shot his parents. ac_rollseyes
			 
			
			
				Exactly, Shen but he got the attention! lol
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Annie"
Exactly, Shen but he got the attention! lol
Yeah, I know. He got what he craved.
			 
			
			
				Maybe that's part of the healing process? The attention he's seeking?
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Annie"
Maybe that's part of the healing process?
Nah, it's just attention whoring.
			 
			
			
				Ya, that too
			
			
			
				Soo if it's attention he needs to heal shouldn't he be like healed by now?  ac_umm
			
			
			
				The cat is dead.  I did what I felt was right, in the most humane way possible.  Trust me, I do not enjoy ANY living thing suffering.  The items were donated to an SPCA shelter, which was appreciated.
Secondly, yes I need help.  These forums attempt to provide that, which typically infuriates me more...  Why?  Even 'real' Psychologists hate dealing with Borderlines, because there is no cure that they can really give.  If you know a 'real' shrink, just ask him/her about us.  I also have other issues also, which are very difficult for even 'real' shrinks to deal with.
I am on a waiting list, but I don't expect miracles.  I went through the same bullshit 20 years ago, and to a lesser extent a few times in between then and now.  However, this time I will expect more action on their part.  I won't be sent out the door in five minutes with nothing more than a script to Zoloft.
People like me can do a fairly good job of 'hiding' things to the general public for some time.  The common theme is, is that this eventually all unravels.  It is just a matter of time when the next 'unraveling' comes.
I admire each and every one of you.  You live a life that I could only dream of.  To be content with your surroundings.  To have family and friends around.  To be content with your work.  To have something to look forward to.  These are things that I've never had, and won't ever will.
To put things in perspective, I'm like the person that has terminal cancer.  They know what they have, and how the outcome will be.  Depression, if present, is a "side effect" of the fact that they have big problems.  This is difficult to treat, since the underlying cause of their depression is very real, and simply cannot be cured.
THIS is why people like me have a pretty shitty outcome.  Suicides rates among Borderlines pretty well tops any others.  We know we're fucked.  I have other issues also.
THIS is why even psychiatrists don't like dealing with us.  They hate nothing more than trying to "fix" us...  And I don't blame them.
			
			
			
				So, talk shit all you want.  I've posted on related forums here for years.
I've become 'unraveled' now, and that's something that society cannot handle.  This is why I usually just keep my fucking mouth shut, and 'fake it until I make it.'
My actions and explanations, which only these shit forums get, are very personal and generally kept very private.  I share them now, and I am a troll?
I am a troll because I give you something that simply cannot be real?  In your world it cannot be.  In my world it is.
			
			
			
				ok AP..let's accept that what you say is true....why keep reposting it over and over again...dozens of times....you don't want or accept advice (i agree with that) so why keep posting the same shit..??? i don't get it...move on....you fucked up talking about killing your cat....personally i couldn't give a shit....whacking a cat is not the end of the world...happens every day.....but why the fuck would you talk about it on a forum where you know what the reaction would be....now you have all the women folk worked up and unwilling to play your game....so where do you want to go from here....WTF
			
			
			
				Ace, you're full of shit.
			
			
			
				I post once or twice, and get hit with multiple pages of shit.  Just look at this thread.  I can answer for pages and pages of shit, no?
			
			
			
				And Obvious, why should I take into account what "women" want?  Look, I thought shit was 'equal' in 2014.
The hags on memebee banned me simply because I do not fit into their 'ideals.'  This is wrong on their part.
			
			
			
				No you got banned because you flooded the board with bullshit.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Ace, you're full of shit.
Sorry, my moustached Italian cutie...
No joke here.  I'm the real deal...  The real McCoy...
You may love me, but you'll probably hate me.  Either way, I always try to bring shit to that next level...
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
No you got banned because you flooded the board with bullshit.
yep^^^^^ and the same bullshit....over and over and over...odi style
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
No you got banned because you flooded the board with bullshit.
There are only two hags there with the desire to contort and conform that forum to exclude me...  Mimi and Evs.
They are about as trustworthy as a Russian mail order...
Take your pick.
I know what they are.  Do you?
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
No you got banned because you flooded the board with bullshit.
There are only two hags there with the desire to contort and conform that forum to exclude me...  Mimi and Evs.
They are about as trustworthy as a Russian mail order...
Take your pick.
I know what they are.  Do you?
what difference does it make...unfortunately they decide whether you post there or not.....so fill your boots
			 
			
			
				She asked, so I state the truth.  Simple as that...
			
			
			
				That's not true.  You do everything you can to exclude yourself and a whole lot of us women take mountains of your shit.  People are concerned and care about you and you treat them like dirt.
			
			
			
				I'm not here to converse the 'treatment' of women there.
You want facts?  I can provide that.  You want "feel good" treatment of women?  Get lost.
			
			
			
				You want to discuss your mental issues, see a doctor or hit up a BPD forum.
			
			
			
				RW, go fuck yourself.  Is that nice and clear?
			
			
			
				Well, are you idiots going to keep poking me, until I get myself banned from here also?
Seems that way!
			
			
			
				Interesting how these fucking idiots follow me around.
			
			
			
				No Ace, YOU go fuck yourself.  Some of us have bigger problems and we don't sit here whining like a little bitch 24/7.  Try talking about something that doesn't involve your mental bullshit or your fucking ex wife.  Like talk about ANYTHING - motorcycles, dump trucks, urinal pucks...ANYTHING.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
Interesting how these fucking idiots follow me around.
Interesting how we were here before you got your ass banned.
			 
			
			
				Why keep trying to run me out of town?  I'm already done at that shithole...
Why are you here trying to run me out of here?
			
			
			
				No one is trying to run you out of anything you dope.
			
			
			
				Because I won't 'conform?'
Got news for you fucking useless hags...  I never will.
Enjoy your life.  Don't worry about mine.
			
			
			
				We'd love to not worry about your life but you throw it in our faces constantly.
You got canned because you flooded the board with posts about how mimi should eat ev's c*nt.
			
			
			
				Why are you here?  This forum is separate...
			
			
			
				I've been here for a while.  There's decent debates to be had on this board.  Plus I missed the folks that post here and not so much on VF anymore.
			
			
			
				Good.  Go fuck yourself now.  I don't care to carry on the shit with the cunts from there, here.
			
			
			
				Then don't act like the same piece of shit here as you do there.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Then don't act like the same piece of shit here as you do there.
I post what I want, when I want to.
No fucking house hag is going to change that.
			 
			
			
				I'm done with you, RW.  Go phone Oscar.  I know you two like to speak on the phone when you're both lonely...
			
			
			
				Oh this jealous bullshit again.  If you gave me your number and asked me to call you, I'd ring.  That goes for pretty much anyone around here.
			
			
			
				I'm not jealous.  I don't "do" house hags with kids.  However, you (and mimi and evs) like Oscar. I know you two speak on the phone.
Birds of a feather...
			
			
			
				Again, I rang him ONCE and we talked for 4 minutes. I haven't called him again since.  It wasn't some romantic interlude.  It was a simple hello.  Get the fuck over it.
			
			
			
				I was banned because I brought forth to the table character flaws to people that truly believe they are perfect...  Nothing more, and nothing less.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Again, I rang him ONCE and we talked for 4 minutes. I haven't called him again since.  It wasn't some romantic interlude.  It was a simple hello.  Get the fuck over it.
Call him again!
He can make you "feel good."
			 
			
			
				I don't want to.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
I was banned because I brought forth to the table character flaws to people that truly believe they are perfect...  Nothing more, and nothing less.
No, you were banned because you acted like a spastic idiot and begged to be canned.  I watched you do it meat head.
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
I don't want to.
Sure you do!
			 
			
			
				I was banned because I made mimi cry...
Yeah right...
			
			
			
				No ... It's because you flooded the board with your tantrum.
			
			
			
				When do you sleep, Tara?
			
			
			
				I was asleep from 9pm to 3am.
			
			
			
				Hmm...
			
			
			
				It's called pain Mel.  Get some.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
The cat is dead.  I did what I felt was right, in the most humane way possible.  Trust me, I do not enjoy ANY living thing suffering.  The items were donated to an SPCA shelter, which was appreciated.
Secondly, yes I need help.  These forums attempt to provide that, which typically infuriates me more...  Why?  Even 'real' Psychologists hate dealing with Borderlines, because there is no cure that they can really give.  If you know a 'real' shrink, just ask him/her about us.  I also have other issues also, which are very difficult for even 'real' shrinks to deal with.
I am on a waiting list, but I don't expect miracles.  I went through the same bullshit 20 years ago, and to a lesser extent a few times in between then and now.  However, this time I will expect more action on their part.  I won't be sent out the door in five minutes with nothing more than a script to Zoloft.
People like me can do a fairly good job of 'hiding' things to the general public for some time.  The common theme is, is that this eventually all unravels.  It is just a matter of time when the next 'unraveling' comes.
I admire each and every one of you.  You live a life that I could only dream of.  To be content with your surroundings.  To have family and friends around.  To be content with your work.  To have something to look forward to.  These are things that I've never had, and won't ever will.
To put things in perspective, I'm like the person that has terminal cancer.  They know what they have, and how the outcome will be.  Depression, if present, is a "side effect" of the fact that they have big problems.  This is difficult to treat, since the underlying cause of their depression is very real, and simply cannot be cured.
THIS is why people like me have a pretty shitty outcome.  Suicides rates among Borderlines pretty well tops any others.  We know we're fucked.  I have other issues also.
THIS is why even psychiatrists don't like dealing with us.  They hate nothing more than trying to "fix" us...  And I don't blame them.
Hello Asian Pride, I will try to keep my judgmental baggage to a minimum..
We do have a dog and a cat that we treat as an extension of our family..
But, my concern is not for your late cat, it is you..
I do not understand your condition, but a waiting list seems unreasonable..
My city has immediate outreach for people suffering mental health issues..
Even some of our churches do this..
Keep looking and you will find some help now without waiting..
I will use my lunch break today to search in the Vancouver area for you.
			 
			
			
				Fash, you will be wasting your time.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
Fash, you will be wasting your time.
It may help or it might not, but I won't give up on anyone who is hurting.
			 
			
			
				He's given up on himself.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
Well, are you idiots going to keep poking me, until I get myself banned from here also?
Seems that way!
that is easily arranged...just keep acting like a dick and you will be gone gone gone
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Asian Pride"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
Then don't act like the same piece of shit here as you do there.
I post what I want, when I want to.
No fucking house hag is going to change that.
sorry..you don't do that on here...and i am not your average house hag..... ac_beating
			 
			
			
				ac_wub
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Real Woman"
ac_wub
lol...no problem....his leash is getting shorter and shorter...kinda reminds me of odi..the self destructive finn...have a good one RW...................... ac_dance  acc_devil
			 
			
			
				Seriously, it "followed" him here? Wow. Back to reality, I was starting to enjoy it here because I was no longer at VF where there was all this whining and the heavy cloud of depression but now it made its way here too.
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Fashionista"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
Fash, you will be wasting your time.
It may help or it might not, but I won't give up on anyone who is hurting.
Hurting is one thing, Fash. I doubt you will behave this way if you were hurting.
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Obvious Li"
sorry..you don't do that on here...and i am not your average house hag..... ac_beating
 ac_dance
			 
			
			
				Don't worry Asia, Munday doesn't take any crap :)
			
			
			
				Quote from: "Fashionista"
Quote from: "Real Woman"
Fash, you will be wasting your time.
It may help or it might not, but I won't give up on anyone who is hurting.
Fuck woman, do you like taking shit and abuse? acc_angry I'll let you in on a little secret, he doesn't like you. You are a woman and woman of colour to boot. Ignore this attention whoring, disrespectful, fucking asshole, ffs!! ac_beating 
Happy Thanksgiving Azhya and Renee. Hey Azhya, do you have a 4 day weekend or is it back to the salt mines tomorrow?
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "reel"
Renee, I'm pretty sure I sent you hate mail and you ignored it entirely.  I know that's what you are supposed to do and all, but it's a bit hypocritical to complain about not getting more of it now!
I don't remember getting any hate mail from you.  ac_dunno 
Did you save a copy; maybe you could resend it. I really need to feel like someone gives a shit enough to hate me.  ac_toofunny
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "reel"
Renee, I'm pretty sure I sent you hate mail and you ignored it entirely.  I know that's what you are supposed to do and all, but it's a bit hypocritical to complain about not getting more of it now!
I don't remember getting any hate mail from you.  ac_dunno 
Did you save a copy; maybe you could resend it. I really need to feel like someone gives a shit enough to hate me.  ac_toofunny
 ac_toofunny   I thought you'd ignored me again!
I don't have a copy of it.
Actually, I think I complimented you on some particularly vicious, yet hilarious attack.
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "reel"
Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "reel"
Renee, I'm pretty sure I sent you hate mail and you ignored it entirely.  I know that's what you are supposed to do and all, but it's a bit hypocritical to complain about not getting more of it now!
I don't remember getting any hate mail from you.  ac_dunno 
Did you save a copy; maybe you could resend it. I really need to feel like someone gives a shit enough to hate me.  ac_toofunny
 ac_toofunny   I thought you'd ignored me again!
I don't have a copy of it.
Actually, I think I complimented you on some particularly vicious, yet hilarious attack.
Oh I remember that. It was during the early days of the Rotten Socks rebellion on VF. I still have it in my inbox.  ac_biggrin
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "reel"
Quote from: "Renee"
I don't remember getting any hate mail from you.  ac_dunno 
Did you save a copy; maybe you could resend it. I really need to feel like someone gives a shit enough to hate me.  ac_toofunny
 ac_toofunny   I thought you'd ignored me again!
I don't have a copy of it.
Actually, I think I complimented you on some particularly vicious, yet hilarious attack.
Oh I remember that. It was during the early days of the Rotten Socks rebellion on VF. I still have it in my inbox.  ac_biggrin
Do you mean Leopardsocks Renee?
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Fashionista"
Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "reel"
 ac_toofunny   I thought you'd ignored me again!
I don't have a copy of it.
Actually, I think I complimented you on some particularly vicious, yet hilarious attack.
Oh I remember that. It was during the early days of the Rotten Socks rebellion on VF. I still have it in my inbox.  ac_biggrin
Do you mean Leopardsocks Renee?
Yes, just one of the many pet names for Leo.
			 
			
			
				Quote from: "Renee"
Quote from: "Fashionista"
Quote from: "Renee"
Oh I remember that. It was during the early days of the Rotten Socks rebellion on VF. I still have it in my inbox.  ac_biggrin
Do you mean Leopardsocks Renee?
Yes, just one of the many pet names for Leo.
I see, thank you for letting me know Renee.
 ac_smile