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Posted by cc
- June 07, 2016, 01:59:39 PMRenee is not always sweetness and niceness like my sooky sweet self.
Posted by JOE
- June 07, 2016, 09:52:29 AMI thought you left.Quote from: "Renee"
What are doing, taking a page from the little Eddie playbook? That revolting deviant used to announce his departure every other day and the fucking skid never went anywhere. In fact I know that creep is probably lurking in the shadows right here, reading your crap as we speak..
Is this the same shit, Mel?
Do yourself a favor......dont make an ass out yourself anymore than you already have. If you are going to go.....just go. If you are going to stick around then do so without all the farewells and the fishing for sympathy.
BTW, nobody cares about these little long winded insights into your misery. Keep your private shit private and deal with it. Nobody likes to see a grown man baring their soul in front of a bunch of relative strangers. This isn't some touchy-feely, hippy encounter group. Jesus fucking Christ, put your big boy pants on and stop crying.
Posted by smell the glove
- June 07, 2016, 07:23:29 AMPosted by Renee
- June 07, 2016, 07:16:33 AMWhat are doing, taking a page from the little Eddie playbook? That revolting deviant used to announce his departure every other day and the fucking skid never went anywhere. In fact I know that creep is probably lurking in the shadows right here, reading your crap as we speak..
Is this the same shit, Mel?
Do yourself a favor......dont make an ass out yourself anymore than you already have. If you are going to go.....just go. If you are going to stick around then do so without all the farewells and the fishing for sympathy.
BTW, nobody cares about these little long winded insights into your misery. Keep your private shit private and deal with it. Nobody likes to see a grown man baring their soul in front of a bunch of relative strangers. This isn't some touchy-feely, hippy encounter group. Jesus fucking Christ, put your big boy pants on and stop crying.
Posted by smell the glove
- June 07, 2016, 06:58:25 AMI was her only child, and I was never meant to be. I have never met my biological father, and my Mother had no business having kids. I'm just glad she stopped at one, after realizing the mistake she made.
Can I blame my parents? I don't like to, but I'm sure there is an issue. My father walked before I was born, and my Mother didn't really want me. She was a raging alcoholic, and it wasn't a "loving, wholesome" household.
I couldn't even have friends over from school, without her embarassing me.
Girlfriends? Forget it. Not at that house!
People ask me now, why I just don't live in that house, as opposed to selling it? I don't think I want to live there, and I got one hell of a price with the sale!
Posted by smell the glove
- June 07, 2016, 06:35:11 AMI have very few places left, where I can be "me." As an introvert, so to speak, I have very few friends.
With my parents both dying here recently, I am literally on my own. This has caused me great stress... The burial I have arranged at the cemetery this week, I will be the only one attending. The ONLY one. This should give you an idea of the isolation of not only myself, but for my parents also.
I'm not here for pity. I don't want "phrases of encouragement." That shit is for clowns.
Sometimes I just want to post my shit.
The last few short years haven't been very friendly to me... My Grandparents dying (which I also had to deal with), a marriage and divorce, and now both my parents dying. These last few years have literally kicked the shit out of me. I want to be done dealing with these things.
My drinking has become excessive lately. Contrary to other posters, I do not regularly consume any other drugs, either prescription or street. I don't even take Aspirin or Tylenol. I will have to make an effort to eventually cut down on the alcohol.
It's a lonely fucking place, when you're essentially the only one left... My support system is shit, as there is none in place.
The one thing I did miss with my ex, is that she brought some stability to my life. She really did. I know that wasn't her job, but I was a better man with someone around, no doubt about it! As with everything else though, I always manage to fuck things up!
I have low self esteem. That's why I drink. I'm pretty calm, cool and collected in my daily travels, and come off as a pleasant guy to everyone I interact with, since I usually am, but that's not whom I really want to be. It's a fucking conundrum... Drinking helps me to escape what i don't like about myself, and my life. And I know my life isn't that bad... I have a better life than most people do, especially now, and for that I am truly thankful!
However something is missing...
I know I'm not nuts... Most people that are nuts (there's a few that even post on these forums), truly cannot register in their own mind that there even is a problem with themselves. That is OK also, as long as they're not serial killers, with the justification being that they "felt like it!"
I have deep regret, going back many years, for things I've done.
I just hope right now is the lowest fucking point in my life, and I'm sure it is... I don't need any more things to deal with.
Humour that others may find to be distasteful, I have always loved! For some reason, right now bad humour is especially entertaining! I have read that many cops do this also, after a few years on the force dealing with stress... They will resort to bad/black humour. Perhaps a coping mechanism?
Either way... What I know is, is that this is probably the last place that I should be, trying to get my shit in order. Not with the uptight hags loose around here. And Memebee is the same. Some blood on a piece of fucking toilet paper stopped the presses then, so I can imagine I am not in the right place here now.
I know most of you are probably good people, and I'm sure you are. It's just that you can barely stomach me on my best day, and wish me quick and instant death on my worst day! LOLZ!
All is well. Give me some time to figure shit out, finalize some things I must finalize, and we'll see what happens.
Posted by JOE
- June 07, 2016, 05:36:16 AMJust curious.
Clearly we are in a bad place. We prolly should start a self-help 15 step course for that, as 12 is not enoughQuote from: "cc la femme"
Hey, all I'm saying is maybe you guys should have a little more compassion and understanding for poor, Mel.
He has problems FFS. He's broken and he can't be fixed.
Poor slob....the only thing he has to look forward to is the next blowout sale on Coors Light.
Posted by Aryan
- June 06, 2016, 04:24:08 PMI've never paid for a shag, but I'm not against it as such....... when you date women you basically end up paying for it anyways with having to take them out, wine and dine em and buy them gifts if you're keen on them.... and after all that you dont always get ya willy wet and can end up with a load of ear ache.
Western women nowadays are hard work, and what with the breakdown of the traditional family unit,and people not getting married etc, the amount of single moms out there is ridiculous, and personally for me to a date a woman with kids is a no no. Problem is nobody stays together these days, and end up throwing in the towel on their relationship at the first hurdle. Wasn't like that with the older generations, they put a lot more effort into their relationships as they knew back then getting divorced, splitting up etc was frowned upon. These days no one bats an eyelid when women go from partner to partner, and end up with several kids with different fathers, and in some cases different colours. Oh the shame.
Posted by JOE
- June 06, 2016, 02:58:59 PMTheQuote from: "smell the glove"ONLYway I could attract and keep the opposite sex, is to pay her handsomely... I know this...
....uh Mel, you're not the only one. All these 'happily married' guys in supposedly stable marriages or the gigolos tell me exactly the same thing.....that in the end, they end up paying for it. Lately, I've never met a guy who said it was free. That mustve been in the 1960s, cuz that ideal shore don't exist no mo'
So you think you're alone in this regard, but in reality you're not...not by a long shot.
Posted by cc
- June 06, 2016, 02:38:43 PMPosted by Aryan
- June 06, 2016, 02:37:16 PM
Posted by cc
- June 06, 2016, 02:31:53 PMMany times I have held back killer blows that were set up on a platter for that reason ... he may well thrive on negative put downs ... he is also a Drama Queen that likes to stir the pot and become center of attention, albeit negative attention
That's the net - problem with the net is that one never knows for sure what is true and what is for "persona" .. especially true for those with messed up and needy egos
as for his latest fiasco, he does not get off based on any excuse
Posted by Renee
- June 06, 2016, 02:27:00 PMClearly we are in a bad place. We prolly should start a self-help 15 step course for that, as 12 is not enoughQuote from: "cc la femme"
Hey, all I'm saying is maybe you guys should have a little more compassion and understanding for poor, Mel.
He has problems FFS. He's broken and he can't be fixed.
Poor slob....the only thing he has to look forward to is the next blowout sale on Coors Light.
Posted by cc
- June 06, 2016, 02:03:21 PMYou mean we are not whores, RW?
He had me convinced. Thank god I have you to protect me from believing bad people who make me feel bad about myself.
Happy "stocking" Ace - I look forward to your return